Days 75 and 76- KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!

Hey guys,

    So, I gotta be real with y'all(wait...did I really just say that?), these past few days have been rough. From drama with friends, to scam artists, to emotional breakdowns, AND a crazy amount of work to do in preparation for two college midterms next week, it's been insane. There have legitimately been times where I'm just like, wait...IS this a joke?? Like, ARE YOU SERIOUS RIGHT NOW? But I am so blessed and lucky to have a support team to rely on and to encourage me when times get rough. For bible study this week, we are memorizing psalm 27:1 that says this, "The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the defense of my life, whom shall I dread?" For me, the question is not only whom, but WHAT. If you know me well, you know that I am a worrier, I am anxiety personified, I have to have everything in my life planned out, and if it doesn't, I flip out. So, with one college midterm, and another college final(it's an eight week class) around the corner, I have no idea what to expect. I have no idea what I'm getting myself into, but this week, God has just shown me over and over again that he's got it, I don't need to worry. I need to focus on being the best student I can right now, because the tests aren't until next week, so I need to focus on THIS week, and doing the best I can RIGHT NOW, instead of worrying about what's to come. On top of the college exams, it's been very emotional, I have had friend issues back home, I've had a TON of homesickness, and I've had a huge wave of grief just wash over me. That's the thing about homesickness and grief, you can't plan them, they come up completely out of nowhere, and if you don't know what to do, you could come crashing down. Obviously, these emotions could not have come on a WORSE week for me, because I'm struggling as it is to get all my work done to my standards, and now I'm dealing with ridiculously hard emotions on top of everything else. I am so blessed to have a support system. I have my family, I have my friends here, I have my friends back home, and they have been such an encouragement to me these past few days, and I am so glad I could come to them. Above all, I'm blessed because I have GOD, not only do I have GOD, but I have a God who has planned out every single MOMENT of my life, from the minute I wake up, to the minute I fall asleep, he knows what is going to happen, and HE is in control. Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'" I would so appreciate prayers this week as I deal with emotions, school work, friends, church activities, and just life in general that I would have the strength and perseverance to "keep on keepin' on"

<3 Always,
Rose