Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Day 364-Memorial Day

Monday, May 25th

Hey guys,

     Today is Memorial Day, and I am so grateful for all who have lost their lives serving our country, and those who still are serving today. A few years ago, we were given a project to do to help us realize just how much of a sacrifice many of these soldiers made for us. We were to interview someone that we know, a family member, a friend, whoever that has served our country, and do a report on them. For me, it was mind blowing, these people have given SO much for us, even if they survived and have returned home, they continue to battle, whether it's PTSD or just simply getting re-acclimated in "civilian life", these soldiers continue to sacrifice their lives for us every day, on and off the battle field. Let's remember them, and do them justice, today and always.

<3 Always,
Rose 

Day 363-We're OFFICIAL!!!!

Sunday, May 24th

Hey guys,

     After being here for almost a year, and attending First Presbyterian for the majority of that time, today it was made official, we ARE members of First Presbyterian Church of Lenoir! YAY!!!!

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 362-Hibriten

Saturday, May 23rd

Hey guys,

      Today, the unthinkable was done, I, Rosemary Elizabeth Stevens, got OUT-TALKED!!! That's right, it ACTUALLY HAPPENED!!! Cassie and I went to go hike up Hibriten mountain for lunch today, and we both enjoyed it immensely. I enjoyed getting to know her better, hearing bits and pieces of her story, and just being with her, and quite honestly, I'm pretty sure she enjoyed the fact that SHE did most of the talking, not me. Of our friend group, I am the one who usually gets given crap about my big mouth, so the fact that someone actually talked more than me was amazing! 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 361-Baseball

Friday, May 22nd

Hey guys,

      It is that time of the year again! It's baseball time! Even before the boys came, Graham was very involved in baseball, he was even on the travel team for a few years, so I have grown up going to baseball games and cheering on my brothers. I've gotten so that I actually ENJOY going to the games, and I can actually understand what's going on. 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 360-Everything will be OK!

Thursday, May 21st 

Hey guys,

       It's very ironic that my post yesterday was all about my friends and how great they are, because they are one of the only things that actually got me THROUGH today. Today, I lost my job, because of my own stupid mistakes. I am the sort of person that tends to be VERY hard on myself when I'm NOT perfect, so knowing that I lost my job because of MY mistakes was hard for me to take in. All day though, my friends reminded me of 3 things, first, you are human, and humans make mistakes, it is OK to not be perfect. Second, they reminded me that I DID handle the situation with maturity and grace, I was honest about what happened. Lastly, they reminded me that this is GOD'S PLAN, just like it says in Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans I have for you.' declares the Lord. 'Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'" God knows what he's doing, and he's not just going to leave me on the side of the road somewhere, because I am his BELOVED.

<3 Always,
Rose  

Day 359-Friends

Wednesday, May 20th

Hey guys,

      I honestly have no idea HOW many times throughout this blog I've said "I have amazing friends" or something to that affect, but here I go again, I'm going to say it. I HAVE AMAZING FRIENDS!!!! Today,Adrienne and I met for lunch at the park, and we got to talking. At LEAST 3 times in the conversation I thought to myself, "This girl REALLY knows me!" which is a feat in itself, because I'm not the easiest person to understand sometimes. Anyways, today showed me once again how amazing my friends are, and how amazing the connection between Adrienne and I really is.

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 358-Little Ones

Tuesday, May 19th

Hey guys,

      So, I really love my job, and it's days like today that remind me just HOW MUCH I love it. Alora was invited to a pool party at her friends Abigail and Zeke's house today, and I probably spent at LEAST half of the afternoon playing with Alora, or with Abigail, or at times both, and it just warmed my heart. No matter HOW frustrating or tiring it can be to constantly be with kids, it is also incredibly rewarding, and I was reminded of that today.

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 357-Jae

Monday, May 18th

Hey guys,

     So, today was a pretty great day. Today is one of my closest friends, Jae's 18th birthday! I so enjoyed spending the night talking, laughing, and just celebrating her. Jae is one of the most fantastic people I have ever met, she has a deep care for each and every one of her friends, but at the same time she is EASILY one of the goofiest people I know. She balances her caring for her friends and being there when they need it, with being a total goof, and making memories that you can ONLY have with Jae. The fact that Jae is leaving in just a few short months makes my heart so sad, but I am also so excited for her in this next exciting chapter of her life. It is truly a BLESSING that saying goodbye is so hard for me, because it means that I have wonderful beyond wonderful friends.

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 356-Integrity

Sunday, May 17th

Hey guys,

     Today, before a room full of high-school students, the integrity of our church elders was put to the test. Our church has entered into the process of leaving the presbytery and joining another denomination, due to differences in beliefs. Tonight was SUPPOSED to be a time for the youth to be able to ask their questions about everything that is going on, and get some answers. Unfortunately, as the night began, the elders realized that they couldn't do this. Because it was an official meeting, there had to be a representative from the Presbytery there, and unfortunately, there wasn't. Instead of just continuing on, as if nothing was wrong, the elders immediately filled us in. The elders showed their integrity, and their respect for the presbytery, despite our different views and opinions. The elders did their best to answer questions as they could, but if there was a question that was approaching the border of what they knew they couldn't talk about, they simply said, "we can't answer that right now." How cool is that?

<3 Always,
Rose

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Day 355-Crafts

Saturday, May 16th

Hey guys,

        So, I spent a good deal of my Saturday making a birthday present for my friend. If you know me well, you probably know that there are two things that I truly enjoy and find happiness in above everything else, music, and crafts. It's hard to explain, but when I have completed my craft, and I see what I was imagining in my head come to life, I get so much joy from that. I get joy from knowing that I made that, with my own two hands, my art tools, and my imagination.

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 354- Parents Night Out

Friday, May 15th

Hey guys, 

     Parent's Night Out has quickly become one of my FAVORITE things that our church does, and tonight was no different. Not only did I get to see my friends for the first time in a whole TWO.DAYS.(yes, that's a LONG time for me!), but I also got to help take care of a bunch of adorable munchkins :)

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 353-Relaxing

Thursday, May 14th

Hey guys,

     So, I am on day 2 of being sick, and I'm ready to get back to "real life". Today was so nice for me to just be able to relax, sleep, and NOT have to worry about anything for a change!

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 352-Feeling Loved

Wednesday, May 13th

Hey guys,

      
      Today, I was sick. Not just like, a head cold, but SICK. Being the person that I am, I HATE being sick, not only because I don't feel well, but because all my other commitments to other people and things fall through. I know it's silly, because it's not anything that I can help, but it just makes me feel horrible, like I somehow let them down by getting sick. I am one that constantly likes to be busy, all the time, constantly going, so when I have to slow down, I really struggle. I think in my 4 years of high-school I missed MAYBE 3 days of school, because I see that as others depending on me, and when I can't be there, I feel like I've let them down. So when I started making all my cancellations for today, I was pretty frustrated, but my friends and boss responded AWESOMELY. Instead of being upset that whatever was supposed to happen wasn't going to, their first and only concern was me. They wanted me to get better, and they wanted me to know that it was ok. That attitude simply made my day today!

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 351-Good Student

Tuesday, May 12th

Hey guys,

       Alluding to my previous post, I have been having to deal with a teacher who is taking advantage of his power, and has disrespected all of his students and the work they've done for him. He has shown that he has put essentially no effort into this class, or his students, yet he expects them to put forth their best effort. Every part of my being wanted to give him a crap assignment, because that's what he gave us to begin with, but I had to resist. I realized that it was not worth risking my grade in this class to prove a point, and this teacher should get my best effort, whether he deserved it or not. One of my favorite quotes from Dave Willis, "Show respect even to people who don't deserve it; not as a reflection of their character, but of yours." is what I just lived my life by today. 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 350-Superior

Monday, May 11th

Hey guys,

      
        Sometimes in life, people are not the greatest. People can be selfish, inconsiderate, rude, mean, harsh, cold, and so many other things. Some people may make you feel like you want to pull your hair out, a single hair at a time. However, when people like that are your superiors, it is your job to listen to them, and follow their instruction. You need to put your own thoughts and feelings aside and, out of respect for your superior, honor their wishes and listen to them. I felt that at a new level today. Today, it was obvious that this person had let all this power go to his head, but I knew I had to obey. No matter how much it ticked me off to see him taking advantage of us, there is nothing that I could have done to change that. So many times, Jesus was treated unfairly, and Jesus saw others treated unfairly, but did he get out his picket sign, go stand on Wall Street, and chant about how it was unfair? No! He swallowed his pride and his opinions and feelings and did what he was told, because they were his superiors, and it was his place to do so. I think what happens a lot of times when boss's are being unfair, or mean, or whatever else, they are looking for someone to stand up to them, they are looking to be disrespected, so that that person can be made an example like, "this is what happens if you disrespect me." sort of an attitude. Instead, what would happen if we as the workers held our tongues, and gave him respect, and honored his wishes? The chances are, he'd probably be pretty confused, wondering why these people still listen to me if I treat them badly. From there, you could have a chance to explain how God calls us as Christians to honor our superiors. Obviously, this goes to a certain extent, there comes a time when your morals are questioned, and then you defend your morals with all your strength. 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 349-Mothers Day

Sunday, May 10th

Hey guys,

      So, this Mother's Day, there was a huge emphasis, at least in the christian community, to NOT acknowledge Mothers, because it makes others feel left out. Not others like kids, or Dads, but others like those who have lost a child, or cannot have a child, or have adopted, or whose child has left the faith, or anything else. With this, I completely agree, Mothers are wonderful, Mothers are superheros, but what about those who haven't had a chance to be a mother? To those people, I would say that I'm SURE there is someone, somewhere, who looks to you as a mother figure, and you look to them as your child. This is almost better than being their Mom, you don't have to deal with the yelling, screaming, slamming of doors, or anything else that accompanies an argument, but they love and respect you just like their Mother. What about those who have children who've left them, or left the church? As someone with personal experience in this, I can say, this is hard for any Mom. There is a delicate balance of loving your children and wanting to protect them, and letting them be independent and make their own decisions, even if you don't necessarily agree with it. As a Mom, when it gets to the point, there's nothing more you can do than to pray, and wait with open arms, hoping that one day they'll find their way back. Last, what about those who've lost a child? This can be one of the hardest, most real pains that anyone could ever have. You give up your life to loving them, caring for them, supporting them, housing them, providing for them, and teaching them, and then all the sudden, that's gone. 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 348-GAME TIME!

Saturday, May 9th

Hey guys,

      Today is the day that I and so many other youth and leaders have been working towards not only all this week, but for MONTHS, we have been planning for this. It's yard sale day!!!! YIPPEE!!!! All day today we had a flow of people, from the time we opened the doors at 7, to the time we closed down at 12. It has just been awesome to see ALL our hard work and planning pay off! What's been even cooler, though, is to see the dedication and work ethic of these students. Most students were up by 5:30 at the very latest, and were at the church by 6:30, ready to go, they did not leave the church, or stop moving for that matter until 4 o'clock that afternoon. As we all became more and more exhausted, the students attitudes actually got better! There was no complaining, no "I'm so tired, I want to go home." but there were high school kids being self-motivated, and working together as a team to get this done well, and get it done fast. These kids are just AWESOME, no matter how tired they are, they don't stop. In fact, at one point in the day, one of the students wasn't feeling very well, but she refused to sit down and rest, when we finally did get her to sit down, she fell asleep in 5 minutes, THAT'S how tired we all were! At the end of the day, I'm proud to say that we made over 3 thousand dollars, and we're actually ahead of where we should be for fundraising!

<3 Always,
Rose

Friday, May 8, 2015

Day 347-Coming Home

Hey guys,

     So, there has been a HUGE influx of videos in social media of soldiers coming home to surprise their family, and I've got mixed feelings about them. On one hand, it aggravates me, and quite honestly makes me jealous. I get it, these people have missed there son or daughter or Mom or Dad while they were away, but it makes me sad. It makes me think, what could happen if Graham showed up on our doorstep one day? What if it WAS all just a big joke? I know that it's not possible, and not realistic, but it breaks my heart. I just swell with envy towards those family who DO get the luxury of seeing their loved ones. On the other hand, it gets me excited, because I know that there WILL be a day when I get to see him again, and get to have that awesome reunion that will be even more epic and heartwarming than ANY of those videos. For me, it STILL seems unreal that he is REALLY gone, or that any of this is really happening, so those videos just make it that much worse, it just makes me so sad. I know that that is NOT the point of these videos, but if you've lost a loved one long before it was time, you can't help but wonder, what if? I wish so much that I could have that experience of Graham showing up at our doorstep, or at church, or whatever, but I know that it won't happen, which just makes the hurt worse. I can't wait for that day that we ARE reunited, and that wonderful moment that I can run into my brothers arms once again. 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 346-Yard Sale finished!

Thursday, May 7th

Hey guys,

      So, I'm very proud to say that today, we achieved our goal for the yard sale. From the get-go, Adrienne made it clear not only that she didn't want to have to be setting up Saturday morning, but she wanted to be done by Thursday!! Considering the amount of things that we were given to sort through at the beginning of the week, and the amount of stuff that continued to pour in throughout the week, it was AMAZING that we got it all done! Last night, I spent probably 4-5 hours sorting and pricing for the sale. Even when the worship team came in to practice, we just worked around them, and continued to power through. I left at 8 o'clock, and there were still LOTS of people working, and LOTS of stuff to get done. I believe they finally left about 9:30, but it DID get completed!!

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 345-Weather!!

Wednesday, May 6th

Hey guys,

      So, you know it's a good day when it's warm enough for you to go to the park not once, but TWICE in the same day! We got to have a picnic with some of Alora's little friends from school, particularly Abbigail, who has quickly become one of her closest friends. The two of them are absolutely adorable together, they are absolutely inseparable when they're together, and it just warms my heart. Quite honestly, they remind me of me and my best friends at that age, and I know that they will be "forever friends" :)

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 344-Yard Sale!

Tuesday, May 5th

Hey guys,

      Today, we started our weeks worth of preparation for this crazy yard sale...as I walked into fellowship hall this afternoon, it was UNREAL how much stuff was there that we had to sort through and organize before Saturday. I walked into just a mass pile of clothes, furniture, shoes, boxes, basically everything you could ever think of. To make it a little more "interesting" shall we say, there was a bible study meeting that night, so we HAD to get things cleaned up enough to have a meeting there tonight. As we all looked around the pile, it legitimately looked like 20 garages threw up in our fellowship hall...talk about stress! Luckily, we had a "team" throughout the week of Katie, Adrienne, Adrienne's brother Dustin, and I who were on the war path to get this done! Without the team, I seriously doubt that it could have gotten done at all...

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 343-Engagements!

Monday, May 4th

Hey guys,

      So today, I got the phone call of a lifetime!!!! I got a call from one of my closest friends back home that she and her high school sweetheart got engaged!!! It has seriously rocked my world, like when did we get old enough for this to start happening?? 

<3 Always,
Rose

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Day 342-Dance

Sunday, May 3rd

Hey guys,

      At our church, dance is a HUGE thing. One of the family's in our church actually owns her own dance studio, and I kid you not, every SINGLE one of the girls under the age of 12 either are in it now, or have been in it at some point. Not only that, but a lot of my friends have carried their passions for dance as little girls into their teenage lives, and are INCREDIBLY talented. Today is the company concert, which is essentially what these girls have been working towards for the past 6 months or more, and I am SO excited to see the fruit of their many hours of rehearsal.

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 341-Music

Saturday, May 2nd

Hey guys,

      Today, I spent hours perfecting my first music video in a while, and it made me so happy! I am constantly singing; around the house, in the car, in the shower, wherever and whenever, I'm singing. A few years ago, I started making videos covering some of my favorite songs to sing, or a song that someone else had requested. So making my first video today made my heart smile, and just reminded me of how blessed I am to have been given the gift of music.

<3 Always,
Rose 

Day 340-Baseball

Friday, May 1st

Hey guys,

       Baseball season is OFFICIALLY underway for the boys, and for our family, that means a LOT of hour stressing over little league games. Our family has always had a heart for baseball, we're die hard Cubs fans, Graham and Jack both played travel baseball for probably 4-5 years each, my Dad coached for probably at LEAST 6-7 years, and now the little boys are getting into it as well! Suffice to say, when baseball season rolls around every year, we get PUMPED! Today was the first baseball game I was actually able to be at, and that made me super happy. I got to see Shane pitch almost the entire game, and I got to see how much he's improved since last season. 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 339-Katie

Thursday, April 30th

Hey guys,

      So, Katie and I very rarely go more than 3-4 days without seeing each other, yes, we are absolutely spoiled ROTTEN! Anyways, today, I got to see Katie for the first time in over a week, and it was GLORIOUS!! We had not really gotten a chance to talk in person since I made my college decision, and I KNEW that she would be one of the ones who was most excited for me(mainly because I'll be at her school...),so it was great for us just to be able to talk. We literally stood out in the parking lot after bible study for probably 20 minutes or more just talking about what next year held for us, and how excited we both were that we'd get to see each other even MORE!!!!

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 338-Home!

Wednesday, April 29th

Hey guys,

     Today's post is fairly simple. I am happy today because I got to come home by 5!!! I know this may seem small and insignificant to some, but on Wednesday nights during the school year, I normally will not get home until 8:30 and the very EARLIEST. 

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 337-Mentoring

Tuesday, April 28th

Hey guys,

      In lieu of yesterday's events, I realized that being content this next year is going to be a struggle. As my friends are all off at college, it will only be harder for me, who is at home. I knew from the minute I made this decision, that I would probably need a mentor to hold me accountable, and encourage me to tackle everyday struggles with Christ as my focus. As I began brainstorming who I could possibly ask to be my mentor, it seemed fairly obvious who it should be, of course, I thought of Adrienne. Adrienne reacted with lots of enthusiasm and excitement, as I knew she would, because now not only does she have me for at least another year, but she also will get to see me and spend time with me on a weekly basis, and we will get to grow our friendship SOOO much over the next year. Today, we met just to talk about what I wanted our mentorship(?) would look like, and what I hoped to gain from it. I am so excited to have this opportunity to not only grow closer with Adrienne, but also just to strengthen and deepen my relationship with God.

<3 Always,
Rose

Day 336-Decisions

Monday, April 27th

Hey guys,

     There comes a time in everyone's life where you cannot avoid it any longer, you MUST make a decision that could change your life forever. For me, today was that day. With the May 1 deadline coming up right around the corner, my parents and I came into this week knowing that we could not avoid it any longer, we HAD to decide. So, after a very emotional discussion with them last night, and an eye opening bible study this morning, I am at peace. I am so very relieved to say, the college decision phase of my life is FINALLY over, and I will be attending community college in the fall. Obviously, this was not my first choice, but despite my opinion, God knows that it is the BEST choice for me right now. As he says in Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans I have for you' declares the Lord. 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope, and a future.'" Although I am not thrilled to be sticking around, this passage is so encouraging to me today to know that God DOES have my best interest at heart, in fact, sometimes my best interest is completely the OPPOSITE of what I have expected, but that's ok. I want to thank you all for the many prayers and support that you've given me as I walked this journey, it does not go unnoticed, and it means SO much to me!

<3 Always,
Rose