So, I don't know WHAT it is about this week, but it seems like I'm always sad. Maybe it's the holiday season without Graham, maybe it's the holiday season without Wheaton, maybe it's the fact that all my friends will be home for Christmas break, and I won't, honestly, I don't know. All I know is that I'm sad, I want to go home, I want snow, I want my brother back, so essentially I want a lot of things that I know I can't have. Tonight at church though, I knew Adrienne could kind of tell that I was having "one of those days", because when I'm upset, I tend to just not say anything, which is very strange for me, especially when I'm around Adrienne! Anyways, she pulled me aside after group, and I just broke down, we didn't say much, but her actions tonight to show me that I AM loved here spoke volumes. I miss home, I miss my friends, I miss the town, and YES, I even miss the bitter Chicago cold, but I know, deep, DEEP, down, that this is where I'm supposed to be right now. I am loved here by so many, and I know if I DO end up going to Wheaton for school, it'll be hard to be away from home. I am so blessed to be loved by people not only back home, but here as well. I am blessed to have someone that has spend SO much time with me these past almost 6 months, that she can tell when something's up, even if I don't say so. I feel so lucky to have so many amazing, AMAZING friends who have been with me through absolutely everything, but I've gotta say, it makes living far a way from each other a WHOLE lot harder...:( Anyways, I am happy and sad today, just trying to find a silver lining of some sort...
Rose
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